Have you ever been surprised by your soul?
It was a moment I’d love to forget.
I remember my wife and I had recently moved to a new country and started a new life. With the move came the search for a new home and, for each of us, a new job.
It wasn’t long before we had locked down a little apartment just feet away from the shores of some of the world’s most pristine beaches, but the job just wasn’t coming together.
I couldn’t convince anyone to hire me to save my life.
To say my wife and I found ourselves under a lot of financial pressure in that season would be an understatement. Seeing the bills come in, and rent go past due, money was beyond tight, it was non-existent.
It was a huge relief, to say the least, when we finally landed ourselves some work. We had been penny pinching for days and rent was due.
When payday finally arrived, to our disappointment, we discovered our employer was withholding our pay without cause.
Cue that surprising moment of the soul.
I drove myself to our place of employment and made like Dog the Bounty Hunter singing a Rihanna song (somebody had better have my money).
It was bad.
An epic fail.
I had allowed the financial pressure to get the best of me.
In that moment, I had completely forgotten who I was and lost myself.
I suppose that’s because pressure has an uncanny ability to challenge our perspective.
I wonder if you’ve ever allowed the pressure to paint a poor perspective in you at times?
Maybe you can relate.
I know the apostle Paul sure could.
Recalling a missionary journey gone bad, Paul wrote to the church in Corinth about how he and his fellow travellers once found themselves in a great deal of trouble.
He wrote: “we were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death [and thought we would never live through it.] But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.” (1 Cor. 1:8-10)
You see, even the apostle Paul fell prey to the pressure and allowed his thoughts and feelings to betray and get the better of him at times.
We’re only human afterall.
In any case, what I find encouraging in the event where Paul got pounded in the grind, is how he determined to stay grounded in the grace, and rely not on himself, but on God to get him through it.
God’s got you.
You’ve got this, despite what your soul is saying right now.
If He brought you to it, He’ll bring you through it.
So keep your perspective, and discover how God can purpose your pressure season, and use it to propel you further into His promises over your life!